life on rent

dido armstrong :d ,
gosh , she thinks mee . how the fucking hell , she get's my idea's ?
weather it's white flag or life on rent .

she's soo much alluring in those words . she have this cursh of mine with her :P.
sooooooo,.,.,.,
4:20 am the clock say's :d , n she's singing i"ll go down with this ship , n i wont put my hand up n surrender .
ok .
i was reading the message archive . i miss those all night conversation , but i guess i have to move ahed not to surrender , cause audioslave says that be urself n like a stone .

off late i have this laughter stalking mee to every place i head for , from virtuality to reality , every single place it's make a stinking , farting sound to give mee shivers .
ok , wat i meant was that , i have been laughing like meniacs off late ( although it's not facial )

every thing i touch these days distance itself from mee beforehand .
like all these ppl , who i thought of re-starting a new fresh conversation with , have already deleated mee from there list :d , i laughed like anything every time i visited there profiles n saw there locked scrapbooks

it give's me kicks when i goo thorough these kind of sitution n my playlist blarres "Someone finds salvation in everyone And another only pain"

i faced varius new queries these days ::
y i always call this internet world as virtual ?
maxi pointed that nither him nor i m virtual , so y the hell i call his identity n mine also as virtual. n frankly speaking , i was speachless ( it's a rareity that i m speachless in a conversation).

one more query faced this week was ::
y are boi's rude ? always .
another of my virtual acquitence asked mee this :d , n once again i laughed at the situation .
well she answered it herself , as she pointed out that boi's tend to behave as grown-up's , n hence they are always ( confused as , in my words ) rude . i said i dont wana grow -up anytime , but still i m confused as rude :
one more thing she pointed out , that girls always try to behave as kids , which is more difficult n funny then boi's behaving as grownup's :d .
n once again i was left speachless . the 2nd time .

n both these queries n randomness made mee realise that life is not that complex as we assume it to be .it's a cake walk to go through , aoll wee need is to keep things simple :) , which is a task not many ppl like to do with .
btw one more thing
i have this foul language in my mouth , n a habit of showing mddle finger to ppl i adore most , the fucking middle finger :D , which made me read all those message archives , i really miss all those slepless night being a chaterbox :(

btw for the first time in these so many year's , i had this feeling of not coming back to this net world .
thanks to her :D , i m finally able to move ahed in life , the place i had being stuck for do-no how many years
for the first time in a long time , i really concentrated in my lectures , i again started being a normal person
\this virtual world had help mee come across an array of ppl , made me read through words , made mee feel for emotions

fuck , wat m i talking bout :D
emotions aient ment to shown upon , as a boi i need to behave as a grown up :P

thanks for helping mee grow up , although i wish i was the same donkey i used to bee , all my life .

vindicated atlast :(