the urge :: take - 2 :\

to start with , i ask a lot of question's :\ , and i only ask them .
a one limb short man telling another man (( who incidently is his captive )) then he havent been any hero , any time in his life , and he lost his leg out of some stupid atrocity of life .
the one limb short man just has one disgust , he cant tell his son that he aient any hero , and he havent lost his leg fighting for his country , but rather he lost it in a freindly gunfire .
just for a mere look in his child eye's , which wants to see his dad as a hero , he never told them this freindly fire thing .
he just want to be a hero :: dats it .

y is this urge of every individual for doing some thing great in his life ?
y is this stuff ( being a hero ) makes ppl sweat like anything ?
i never being to any accomplishment in my life , watsoever small or big
i watch cricket just to have a hero salvaging me for my pride , i watch movies for some undertaker making it big suddenly in his flithy life , i do it all to follow a hero . and in them i see myself as a charecter .
the urge to do something which might get acknoledged by ppl around me makes me dream of being a hero some day .

some day i might have to look into eyes oof my ad , my mom , or rather my siblings for wat i have done worthfull in my life , all i have is phony dreams of mee getting into the charecter of the hero in some movie theater .

are these dreams worth it ?
y is this ppl always dream to be hero ?
y is it that ppl have to answer the nagging stares off every single individual who looks up to him .
y is in the first case a person is loooked up to ?

the uRge ...................

words :: y do they cost such a lot of energy .
y dont ppl juct imitate animals in keeping themself quite , y is this that humans are to express through vocal chords ?
words :: they bring a lot of burden on to humanity :- allegations , fraud , heartbreak , happyness , joy , the serean felling of being able to expres one-self :
words make ppl sink into sorrow after passing through the valley of happyness .
aniamls on the other hand just reamin simple plain , emotionless , no complexity attached .
words make things complex rather then making things simple for clarity , one has to answer questions , explain queries on allegation , and if he have some joy : he need to express it in a chirpy alphabets showing the vivrent ecstacy of the situation , one has to be crafty in words , mug up synonym for a single word to be used in different distinct situations .
all adding up to the complexity of the situation .

aient words ment up to simplyfy things :(
y do it all lend up making things a bit complex , either if it is realted to the satire of happyness or else the ecstacy of sadness .
animals on the other hand just start the day with a new prospect having no baggage of words , as they dont have to use words :: they dont use words = they dont remember words = they dont carry unnecessasry baggage of the past .

words as ppl say make human race superior , it give us more power , it allow us to unite ppl and making a force , rather then being individual lonesum .
but dont words lead to atrocity , ppl calling themself superior just by the virtue of knowing a few more words then others .
dont words lead up to unite ppl in opposite groups rather then being a herd of animals who just cant use words and hence they dont form opposite groups .
i dont know y am i using words for expressing all this , may be m addicted to this complexity of words , may be i m born to complain , as i have learned how to use words .







btw :: this post was ment to be for heros and the urge for being a hero , but as usual words mae it complex rather then simplyfying the felling i was suffring from some 15 mins ago :\
do watch 3-10 to yuma {:-

sonic youth ~~ superstar (( o.s.t -juno ))

lonly-ness is such a sad affair...
self-preaching is more of a slumber disguise ...
mute-ness gets all dizzy high on marooned ecstacy...
adrena-line gassing through all those mute stares .....

those empty platforms with all those trains leaving ....
colossal chaos riding high on individual jaded-ness ....
serenity leaking through the toes of daily/morbid schedules ....
still , finding one-self as lonly among this sea of intriguing face's ....



lonly-ness is really a very sad affair ................................ [:-



maxi has the following answer to the sad affair of lonly-ness .

the worst thing in life is attachment , it hurts when you lose it .
the best thing in life is lonlyness , it teaches you a lot of things and when you lose it :: you"ll get happy .

vidicated

ok i was writing bout this song , n how it and desert rose has been a religion with mee , how i has all these year have been longing to hear these two songs , day in day out .
n i m not getting anytihng to write :( , but still i feel like scribbling onto this window :\
ok ley me tell u bout bucketlist :P
it's a kinda list , which a person makes for hinself . it's more like yearly resolution one swears by hinself at the start of every year .
so bucket list contains aspired things one wana deal with , things which keeps elluding pppl all there life , actually the phrase " bucket list " is contemporary to a bucket in which u fill all ur stuff's b'fore u kick it away :: in life ppl make a busket list of wat to do b'fore the get out of this life , or else they kick the bucket on the floor :p

ok this topic has been mis-named as vindicated , none of my sins are comming out of the gunny bag tunight , may be some other night i feel a bit more cursed to spell out the venom :P
so wat to scribble at 3:45 am ?
why do ppl (( or else better to say I )) write at night ?
is it bout the darknes?
is it bout the lonelyness?
is it bout the sound of cealing fan ?
or is it bout the snores of ppl who live with u ?
btw who cares :P inless and untill the words are comming :)
my dad snores like anything , maa says i also snore at time , and i also blame her for snoring (( no she never snores :P , its only mee who get on her head to agre that she do snores ))
y do ppl snore? o_0
when i was a kid , i thought snoring is a symbol of sound sleep :P, n it only irritates other ppl out of there sleeps :P . so as i grew up ., my perception of snores changed , and i related it to some respiratory disorders , some thing related to the nasal cavity which prodeces sound due to pressure difference (( ok this is only my vague assumption )) .
so my dad snores like anything , n i persived him as a rider of sound sleeper :P.